It's A War

from by Ben Lear

  • Record/Vinyl + Digital Album

    Limited Edition double vinyl with gate-fold jacket. Plus, the two B-Sides are on the actual vinyl! Vinyl is the only format that has these tracks.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Lillian: A Folk Opera via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
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When I was a kid
I loved a girl in my class
She was lovely but she
Didn’t love me back.

Every night I called her
Hoping we would talk for hours
But she always had to go and
Do her math.

Still my heart flew out to her
Like a bird through a glass door.

It was war in my body.
When she told me we were done.

All my butterflies, one by one they died.
The only thing that made it out alive was my mind

The rest of that semester
I barely remember.
I was bottled up inside my head.

I gave up on feeling because
Every time I tried I would
Remember how my heart felt
When it died.

And to think all these years later
My body’s not restored.

It’s a war deep within.
When I’d meet someone new.

My mind would be ready to trust again
But my heart would always tell it to shut down again

And go cold.

It’s a war here at sea.
And Lillian’s out there.

Could it be that she was never pulled by a wave
But instead my heart’s still frozen and I pushed her away?
To an island of waste?


from Lillian: A Folk Opera, released June 14, 2011



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Ben Lear Los Angeles, California

BEN LEAR is a Brooklyn based composer and songwriter. His debut album, Lillian, "an edgy, experimental folk opera blending acoustic guitar songs with percussive chamber and orchestral music" (Los Angeles Times), was released in June of last year.

His live show, which often contains orchestra and light sculptures, has been called "an epic blend of Arcade Fire, Feist and a Muppet show" (The Awl).
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